98. Freedom from Self-identification-1
Maharaj: Can you sit on the floor? Do you need a pillow?
Have you any questions to ask?
Not that you need to ask, you can as well be quiet.
To be, just beÄi0, is important.
You need not ask anything, nor do anything.
Such apparently lazy way of spending time is highly regarded in India.
It means that for the time being you are free from the obsession with 'what next'.
When you Are not in a hurry and the mind is free from anxieties,
it becomes quiet
and in the silence something may be heard which is ordinarily
too fine and subtle for perception.
The mind must be open and quiet to see.
What we are trying to do here is to bring our minds into the right state for understanding what is real.
Questioner: How do we learn to cut out worries?
M: You need not worry about your worries.
Do not try to be quiet; do not make 'being quiet' into a task to be performed.
Don't be restless about 'being quiet', miserable about 'being happy'.
Just be aware that you are and remain aware -- don't say: 'yes, I am; what next?'
There is no 'next' in 'I am'. It is a timeless state.
Q: If it is a timeless state, it will assert itself anyhow.
M: You are what you are, timelessly, but of what use is it to you unless you know it and act on it?
Your begging bowl may be of pure gold, but as long as you do not know it,
you are a pauper.
You must know your inner worth and trust it and express it in the
daily sacrifice of desire and fear.
Q: If I know myself, shall I not desire and fear?
M: For some time the mental habits may linger in spite of the new vision,
the habit of longing for the known past and fearing the unknown future.
When you know these are of the mind only, you can go beyond them.
As long as you have all sorts of ideas about yourself,
you know yourself through the mist of these ideas;
to know yourself as you are, give up all ideas.
You cannot imagine the taste of pure water, you can only discover it by abandoning all flavourings.
As long as you are interested in your present way of living,
you will not abandon it.
Discovery cannot come as long as you cling to the familiar.
It is only when you realise fully the immense sorrow of your life and revolt against it, that a way out can be found.